A Journey Along the Journey

Today, we leave for vacation. Ah, I needed this! We are headed for Atlanta to the Braves game and then to South Carolina for whitewater rafting-which I've always wanted to do!

My shorts are already feeling more loose than usual, and I'm excited about that too! I'm slowly breaking my addiction to food. I never realized how much of a slave I was to the meals of my day- I used to let food make my day or break it. No more! Now I eat until I'm full and leave the rest for later. It's a slow process, but it's a lifestyle I've got to get used to!

I don't plan to weigh again for a couple of weeks, just so I don't get frustrated or discouraged! Anyway, things are getting easier and that's all I've prayed for! I'm also hoping to get started on some arts and crafts once I get back to keep busy before school starts. So many ideas though, and I just can't decide on one!

Doughnuts,doughnuts, doughnuts. Yep, those are my weakness. My aunt brought some by yesterday when dropping off my little cousin and I knew I was in trouble. Instead of giving in, I went outside and tried to do something productive. But all I could think about was DOUGHNUTS!! What a fatty, I thought to myself. But then I was reminded by a good friend of a passage from 2 Corinthians where God says that His grace is sufficient for me and that He is powerful in my weakness.

Immediately I felt empowered and recalled one afternoon in the beautiful mountains of Honduras...We had travelled down the mountain for 2 hours on foot to visit a small, very secluded village and we were on our way back UP the mountain. The hardest part, of course. Both of my ankles were twisted from a path that was not travelled often and I had a pretty bad cut on my stomach from a tree branch. So you could say I was tired- emotionally, physically and spiritually. I had eaten no breakfast, my own stupid mistake, but we only had about 30 more minutes to climb until we were back to the farm. It wasnt easy like hiking is here in the States, as we were literally doing what felt like rock climbing in the highest point in the Western Hemisphere. I stopped and completely broke down, thinking I could go on no more. Once I realized that there was no other way to get back to the farm, I decided to get everyone on the team to pray in a circle on the side of the mountain. All of a sudden, I had a renewed energy like never before. It was so amazing to me, it brought tears to my eyes! I jogged back to the farm with glee, knowing God was to thank for it all.

Just as I recalled this passage that day, I recalled it again yesterday: "I lift my eyes unto the hills, where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord- the maker of Heaven and Earth!" Psalms 121:1-2



I feel so very stupid for thinking of giving in, when all I needed to give- was my worries to Him! I am going to struggle, as I knew I would and as I struggled yesterday. What's important, though, is I don't give up and quit. I was made for more than this cycle of defeat!

A New Journey!

Yesterday began a new journey for me. After eating a meal at Waffle House, my boyfriend and I discussed that we have been eating late meals a lot recently. We made a plan to stop eating after 8 p.m. and from there, my mind wandered. I realized I needed to be more healthy, but moreover, I needed something to inspire me and keep me going. I've been wanting a new tattoo recently but I have had no idea what I want. The only problem is that I insist that all my tattoos have meaning to them... So what better way to motivate me than to get a tattoo after I get back into shape?! So I'm excited to announce that I will blog every few days- if not every day to document my struggles and feelings along the way! I am excited to become healthy again, and even though I DO hope to lose weight, it's more important to me to just feel like myself again. I know that I will get down and probably feel like I can't win at times, but I am armed with Bible verses and great friends to help me! The only weight loss goal I have- is to be happy with myself when it's over with! Meanwhile, I will be designing the tattoo that I wish to get at the end! So many Bible verses I want for this tattoo, but I have to choose only one! If anyone has any ideas, please send them to me! Hopefully this journey will not only be about bettering myself, but also about growing closer with the Lord through Bible verses I encounter along the trail! So...here's to a new, happier me and a new, exciting journey!