Doughnuts,doughnuts, doughnuts. Yep, those are my weakness. My aunt brought some by yesterday when dropping off my little cousin and I knew I was in trouble. Instead of giving in, I went outside and tried to do something productive. But all I could think about was DOUGHNUTS!! What a fatty, I thought to myself. But then I was reminded by a good friend of a passage from 2 Corinthians where God says that His grace is sufficient for me and that He is powerful in my weakness.

Immediately I felt empowered and recalled one afternoon in the beautiful mountains of Honduras...We had travelled down the mountain for 2 hours on foot to visit a small, very secluded village and we were on our way back UP the mountain. The hardest part, of course. Both of my ankles were twisted from a path that was not travelled often and I had a pretty bad cut on my stomach from a tree branch. So you could say I was tired- emotionally, physically and spiritually. I had eaten no breakfast, my own stupid mistake, but we only had about 30 more minutes to climb until we were back to the farm. It wasnt easy like hiking is here in the States, as we were literally doing what felt like rock climbing in the highest point in the Western Hemisphere. I stopped and completely broke down, thinking I could go on no more. Once I realized that there was no other way to get back to the farm, I decided to get everyone on the team to pray in a circle on the side of the mountain. All of a sudden, I had a renewed energy like never before. It was so amazing to me, it brought tears to my eyes! I jogged back to the farm with glee, knowing God was to thank for it all.

Just as I recalled this passage that day, I recalled it again yesterday: "I lift my eyes unto the hills, where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord- the maker of Heaven and Earth!" Psalms 121:1-2



I feel so very stupid for thinking of giving in, when all I needed to give- was my worries to Him! I am going to struggle, as I knew I would and as I struggled yesterday. What's important, though, is I don't give up and quit. I was made for more than this cycle of defeat!